Max: Drizzle
For the past few days it has been cold and wet. It hasn't been raining so much as drizzling. It's been the slow sort of drizzle that you don't feel right away but rather soaks in slowly, wicking away all sense of warmth as it does.
It has been almost a month since I found out I am being laid off. I don't know how many resumes I have sent out, but so far I have had no response. I do have an interview tomorrow for another position with my current employer, but that is not really a response to my resume. Everybody who is getting laid off is getting interviewed for these positions. So instead of what I would have rather been doing today, I got to try on more businesslike clothes, shave my beard and get my hair cut. That pretty much killed my day but I figured I would at least have some time in the evening. It seemed fair to me. Instead I get to go show shopping with the wife and then go hang out with our "couple friends". I mean, they are cool enough people and I am sure the evening won't suck entirely. But it isn't what I wanted to do today. I have absolutely no control over my life anymore. I am being pulled in a million directions. I have ben so stressed for so long I don't even remember what calm feels like. There is so little room left for me in my life. It seems like I had a right to a few hours of my time on may day off to do something for me. My mistake.
So, I am struggling to keep a job I am going to lose, struggling to get worse job so I don't end up starving to death. And on top of that, he government is apparently of the opinion that I made $1300 too much last year are keen to rectify the overage on or before April 15. And I can't even be allowed a few fucking hours to go to the library and forget about all this shit that is closing in on me.
Sometimes being me is not entirely amusing.
It has been almost a month since I found out I am being laid off. I don't know how many resumes I have sent out, but so far I have had no response. I do have an interview tomorrow for another position with my current employer, but that is not really a response to my resume. Everybody who is getting laid off is getting interviewed for these positions. So instead of what I would have rather been doing today, I got to try on more businesslike clothes, shave my beard and get my hair cut. That pretty much killed my day but I figured I would at least have some time in the evening. It seemed fair to me. Instead I get to go show shopping with the wife and then go hang out with our "couple friends". I mean, they are cool enough people and I am sure the evening won't suck entirely. But it isn't what I wanted to do today. I have absolutely no control over my life anymore. I am being pulled in a million directions. I have ben so stressed for so long I don't even remember what calm feels like. There is so little room left for me in my life. It seems like I had a right to a few hours of my time on may day off to do something for me. My mistake.
So, I am struggling to keep a job I am going to lose, struggling to get worse job so I don't end up starving to death. And on top of that, he government is apparently of the opinion that I made $1300 too much last year are keen to rectify the overage on or before April 15. And I can't even be allowed a few fucking hours to go to the library and forget about all this shit that is closing in on me.
Sometimes being me is not entirely amusing.
posted by Max Dobberstein at 3/23/2005 04:42:00 PM
3 Comments:
"Just Breathe", its free and relaxing. ;)
You can have the rest of the week's evenings to yourself, Love. Then, we get to go to Chicago and have a good time and just see what we wanna see, no stress involved. I love you!
I just say "No" to oxygen!
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