Jericho: I nearly did it again!
It's a freakin' disease with me! I don't know how to control it, pretty sure there isn't a drug for it - maybe I can get some therapy.
I nearly started a new project and dropped a couple of current ones.
Do you believe it? I can't believe it.
Granted, it's a kinda neat idea – a simple, free, possibly lucrative idea. People for years have told me I should write porn, er, um, "erotica" – I'm not Penthouse Forum quality, but I can hold my own. The porn industry is huge and growing more by the day – lots of money to be made out there. I found a site that hosts free porn blogs. There are thousands of porn sites with affiliate programs – it's pennies per click but pennies add up.
So, I could put up a porn blog, load up daily content, say the fictional exploits of a sexually adventurous stud. This host even allows you to set up posts for the future so you could write a few posts before hand. Add in a ton of affiliate programs and let the pennies trickle in.
Good idea, yeah? I mean, I want to be a freelance writer. This could provide some income to supplement my writing, especially if it gets a real readership. If I can put up five hundred words a day, that's a nice chunk of content that people will come back for. I'll only have to cut into a few of my other projects, maybe ditch the NaNoWriMo. But it's for money, right? That's gotta be a good thing, right??
Dammit!
This is how my diseased brain functions. I have already mentally written the outline of half a dozen entries. I have the title picked out, the main character's name and a good bunch of affiliate programs I want to look into. I had all of that before breakfast. I've spent the rest of the day trying to NOT think about it more. I don't need another project, I don't need another hobby and I don't need a FOURTH (fifth?) blog that I'm ignoring!
As I sit here writing this, my brain is trying to figure out ways to make this work! I'm obsessed! Why can't I have a little focus, a little discipline? Why can't I find and finish a project, then move onto another one? Why must I always leap frog around from project to project never finishing the ones I've started? Why? I like finishing projects. I like feeling like I've achieved something. Why must I constantly fight this battle? WHY?!?!?
WARGH!!!
If I could punch my own brain, I would. I'm so frustrated by this. As I sit here and type I'm thinking about this new project and thinking of all the other projects I've got left sitting around and how much of a freakin' failure I am. Everytime I come up with a good idea that I don't pursue or that I table for later, my brain starts in on me. "That could be THE project. That could be your 'pet rock', your 'Rubik's cube'. Nothing you are doing right now is doing anything for you. Screw this stuff and try the new thing!" So, I feel guilty and I feel like a failure for not completing the projects currently on my plate and I feel like a coward for not trying the new thing.
What is WRONG with me??
I nearly started a new project and dropped a couple of current ones.
Do you believe it? I can't believe it.
Granted, it's a kinda neat idea – a simple, free, possibly lucrative idea. People for years have told me I should write porn, er, um, "erotica" – I'm not Penthouse Forum quality, but I can hold my own. The porn industry is huge and growing more by the day – lots of money to be made out there. I found a site that hosts free porn blogs. There are thousands of porn sites with affiliate programs – it's pennies per click but pennies add up.
So, I could put up a porn blog, load up daily content, say the fictional exploits of a sexually adventurous stud. This host even allows you to set up posts for the future so you could write a few posts before hand. Add in a ton of affiliate programs and let the pennies trickle in.
Good idea, yeah? I mean, I want to be a freelance writer. This could provide some income to supplement my writing, especially if it gets a real readership. If I can put up five hundred words a day, that's a nice chunk of content that people will come back for. I'll only have to cut into a few of my other projects, maybe ditch the NaNoWriMo. But it's for money, right? That's gotta be a good thing, right??
Dammit!
This is how my diseased brain functions. I have already mentally written the outline of half a dozen entries. I have the title picked out, the main character's name and a good bunch of affiliate programs I want to look into. I had all of that before breakfast. I've spent the rest of the day trying to NOT think about it more. I don't need another project, I don't need another hobby and I don't need a FOURTH (fifth?) blog that I'm ignoring!
As I sit here writing this, my brain is trying to figure out ways to make this work! I'm obsessed! Why can't I have a little focus, a little discipline? Why can't I find and finish a project, then move onto another one? Why must I always leap frog around from project to project never finishing the ones I've started? Why? I like finishing projects. I like feeling like I've achieved something. Why must I constantly fight this battle? WHY?!?!?
WARGH!!!
If I could punch my own brain, I would. I'm so frustrated by this. As I sit here and type I'm thinking about this new project and thinking of all the other projects I've got left sitting around and how much of a freakin' failure I am. Everytime I come up with a good idea that I don't pursue or that I table for later, my brain starts in on me. "That could be THE project. That could be your 'pet rock', your 'Rubik's cube'. Nothing you are doing right now is doing anything for you. Screw this stuff and try the new thing!" So, I feel guilty and I feel like a failure for not completing the projects currently on my plate and I feel like a coward for not trying the new thing.
What is WRONG with me??
posted by Jericho Brown at 10/20/2006 05:21:00 PM
2 Comments:
Lack of long term vision. A desire for instant gratification. If a project doesn't start "panning out" within a few weeks, maybe months, you move on to something else you hope will show rapid gain.
You are an intellectual day trader.
I'm shocked IWDC has lasted as long as it has... it's a record for you, isn't it, Jer??
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