Max: Meh
I have been focusing on the negative in my recent posts. When I want to scream or curl up in the fetal position, it helps to write. Writing helps me organize my jumble of thoughts, to see when I am being irrational and gain some insight into the mess that is me. Instead of paying a therapist to listen to me, I just unload here for free.
This week, something that has been swirling through my thoughts for some time has worked its way to the front. I tend to blame outside persons/forces for problems/stress/frustrations that have no rational, external causes. Since then, when I find myself reaching the lower depths, I have been trying to remind myself that the worst of the problems are a result of malfunctions in my brain, not the person who happens to have the joy of interacting with me at the time it happens.
Reminding myself that the worst my problems are not rational or external in origin has helped me stop trying to to find irrational external solutions, such as spending money I don't have at Amazon.com and Borders. That said, going forward I need to not just focus on the irrational source of my emotional distress, but also on the external things in my life that are going right. Except for my defective brain, I have a pretty good life. Hopefully focusing on that will help as I work through my emotional fits.
This week, something that has been swirling through my thoughts for some time has worked its way to the front. I tend to blame outside persons/forces for problems/stress/frustrations that have no rational, external causes. Since then, when I find myself reaching the lower depths, I have been trying to remind myself that the worst of the problems are a result of malfunctions in my brain, not the person who happens to have the joy of interacting with me at the time it happens.
Reminding myself that the worst my problems are not rational or external in origin has helped me stop trying to to find irrational external solutions, such as spending money I don't have at Amazon.com and Borders. That said, going forward I need to not just focus on the irrational source of my emotional distress, but also on the external things in my life that are going right. Except for my defective brain, I have a pretty good life. Hopefully focusing on that will help as I work through my emotional fits.
posted by Max Dobberstein at 6/04/2008 07:31:00 AM
1 Comments:
This was really nice to read. I hope you keep it up. I need to do the same thing. We should try to help each other remember the good thing in our life. We'll get though it together. I'm here for you, even if I don't always act that way. I have my own brain chemical problems that sometimes work against us, but together it can only get better.
I love you.
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